New Day

Well, today is a new day and since I posted my ranting and complaining of my friendships, I realized that I was being an annoying and lame person. In the past I have been over the top about my friendships. Actually, I have always been over the top with my friendships. I know that I am way to passionate about them. I was recently told that I have a victim mentality when it comes to relationships and friendships. I guess I wouldn't go as far as that, but I have had my fair share of whining and complaining. I confirmed the label with another person and they told me that there were times where I complain about things, but that person also said they wouldn't go as far as the victim mentality. It was, in a way, good to hear because although I knew I was complaining about things, I almost believed that it would make things better. As a former teacher and nanny, I should have known better. Why I thought that would help is beyond me. I guess I was just looking for a friend to come out and say, hey I get it, you are not alone. I guess everyone does some stupid things and this was mine. I know now that doing that only causes people to push you away, and that is the complete opposite of what I want! So as of that day (November 11, 2008) I haven't complained. It actually has been great. I found the simple things in life and I don't worry about having these deep connections with people. I know it hasn't been that long, but I will continue to not complain. I know that I have great friends. So what that they all work where I do!? What does that matter? It doesn't. I am glad that that person told me what they did because it made me realize that I was not making myself happy, I was only making my life harder and not so happy. I have felt better and realized that I just need to be happy with me and the rest will follow. So far, that is what I have done and boy things are 1000 times better already. :) Life is great. :)